There is much work to be done, but my brain fails to process the information that is thrown at me. With much effort I get the brain to work, but my hands refuse to obey the orders it sends out...
I feel like I am living in a zombie state - going from one activity to another without creally living it. I have begun to listen to the dham-dham music as I used to call it. That is essentially music with very loud beats. After a while, I realise I haven't soaked up the song as I used to... I haven't lived the music as I used to. It faded into the background in a while and I couldn't tell when tracks change. I start an activity and dont take it to completion. A movie I began seeing last week still needs about 40 mins of my attention. A painting I began last year has patches of blank canvas staring back at me. Half written stories and poems call me to themselves all the time... I no longer get happiness out of these things. Sometimes, I feel I am doing this just to continue being the same person I once was... I am clinging to these things, not willing to change... and that seems to be a big reason for the way I feel right now...
1 comments:
Give it time...
I realize that these are the things that gave you happiness once... so try to put in your head in them. They might be not that great as they used to be, coz your hearts not in it at the moment. But it'll be a start...
You'll get some satisfaction after completing them...
Your healf-hearted attempts would still be good enough for us to enjoy... am sure.
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